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Towards happiness
Hi! You can call me Livy. I am born and lived all my life in Romania, have sekler origin (considered as hungarian minority).
I am a restless person, as would people who know me describe it 🙂 have not found my life mission or my place yet, but have been very busy exploring alternatives. At 46 this might seem a much too adventurous life approach, if so, please move on.
Since I know myself, I was drawn to nature and wildlife. Fortunately, had a grandfather figure during childhood, an old-fashion hunter, who took me out in the wild and thought me everything he knew. We were quite inseparable for a while.
I would have liked a veterinary career, but it was denied. I became a teacher instead, than economist. Nature stayed in my life as mountain hikes during college. Afterwards as a perfectionist, (raised so and by) , wanted the usual succes: family, career, house, car, vacations. Yeah, you can guess it never happened, or was only partially 🙂 Nature was far behind in memory and reach, as a dreamlife maybe…In my second marriage wanted a kid at 33, but was declared sterile. I was loosing it, so started to seek solutions. It began with Reiki, than a lot followed. Includind the books “Ringing cedars..” At one point, I divorced (as my dreams and aspirations were considered unsustainable) and pursued to education as vet assistant and a long-distance learning programme in animal assisted activities/therapy. I became vegan, meanwhile. Got a labrador puppy (I had a cat-rescue home already in my rented apartment in the city), trained her and also started to learn horses at a farm. Rebonded with my beloved mountains. Before I could start a real job with animals included, got pregnant -at 37! So, there I was, looking for a home in countryside for me and my cats and dog, jobless, expecting a baby without a father figure (he drew back totally). Well, made some considerable efforts that later cost me, but finally, in 2017 got to move into a house near Brasov with baby boy and my animals. After two years resumed teaching and gave up vegan diet. Meanwhile entered other realms of foraging edible wild plants, natural remedies for animals and my family, zoopharmacognosy, essetial oils, red light, energy medicine, holistic medicine whatsoever.
I resigned in 2022 and tried to buy a piece of land on my own (did not find a man with same ideas or willing/considering it possible) and build shelter on it with natural materials. This did not went well, so I am on a second sabatic year, living away from people (as mush as a schooler boy lets-unschooling is not an option for single mom with no material backing). I live on a former deserted property bought by friends, they considered at some point moving and forming a community, but gave up the idea. They built a summer-vacation cabin and that’s it. The old houses are in an advanced grade decay stage, so I am on the move by next year. Originally considered a 4 years stay, but lack of natural water source and extreme hot summer, with no possibility of natural gardening without great intervention on the land (it’s all slopes and wildbushy) makes it impossible for me. No income possibility also, I seem not to be able to find online remote job either.
So, yeah, still I am is all I have and moving on towards working again in the system as long as it takes to find my place. Relationships I’ve tried to build did not stand as I have a strong sense of independence, despite the fact I barely thrive-but I do. I cannot stand the idea of being pittied, not listened to, in need of saving or considered mostly an asset or a tool in order to fulfill a man’s needs and dreams. But hey, life without love is like a vale boat without vales…I do not give up on finding my soulmate, or actually…him finding me 🙂
At this point I should also say that I’m an introvert, highly sensitive but little I show off. I’m empathic, I like to stay away from people most of the time and have truly deep interactions when not. I feel at home in the wild, love the forrest and for later on I have in mind a shamanic pathway. I appreciate authenticity. I offer and desire sincerity. I am not exuberant, I smile a lot but prefer silence. I believe natural harmony is created between soulmates, without feeling the need of defense.
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This discussion was modified 7 months, 3 weeks ago by
Ibolya Veress.
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This discussion was modified 7 months, 3 weeks ago by Ibolya Veress.
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This discussion was modified 7 months, 3 weeks ago by Ibolya Veress.
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Hi, Livy! Thank you for baring your soul. What a surprise to get pregnant at 37 years old. Your son must be about 8 years old now. I don’t know anything about Romania and don’t have much to say now, but I read your story and wanted to acknowledge you for writing.
Do you know this song? “Row, row, row your boat, gently down the stream. Merrily, merrily, merrily, merrily – life is but a dream.” Keep rowing gently, and dreaming, sweet one!
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This reply was modified 7 months ago by dahVeed Montané.
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Thank you, DaVeed, for your gentle and sweet message! I definitely am dreaming on 🙂
About this heaven on Earth piece of beauty, called Romania, I can only recommend everyone to visit, at least once in a lifetime 🙂 One vacation/ visit cannot be enough to breathe in what this land has in pocket for humans. But that’s ok, because once here, you will be in love and returning for more 🙂 I can help with list of places, itineraries of places that are not on travelblogs or turist attraction lists.
Best regards,
Livy
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