Who am I?
Who are You (my beloved)?
How will I help you create a dream worthy of co-creation?

I do not know much about most things.
This includes music, art, culture, history,current events, geography, math, books etc…
I know very little about a lot.

I do love to organize, everything from thoughts to things,
and dynamic governance, is one of my favorite things to explore.
I am not skilled at any art form – except a bit of writing.

According to the Gregorian calendar I am a builder – a life path number 4
According to the Harmonic Standard calendar I am an intuit – a life path number 11

Yet

Somehow,

My inner world is magnanimous and a very fun place for me to be.
I love to contemplate and think and be still, but also move.
I am wondrous, timeless, cosmic (like the Kiwi), contemplative, silly.
I have a phenomenal bs detector and I relate to the Chaga mushroom in my loyal nature.

Supportive, child-like, pure, youthful, buzzing with vitality.

I believe & I’m in awe.

Sense of innocence, sincerity.
I am open and formfitting to others  yet I have solid boundaries.
Analogies, pattern recognition – I am a creator creating a pattern.

I love people and also love being alone with Abba. I know that if I die now, my timeless soul will soar and so I’m unattached to life and what I do with it. Yet, I feel unstoppable locomotion unfolding within me.

I love the Cosmos, but know nothing about the stars & yet I want to recall.

I love children and being an early child-hood nanny because they meet me where I am.

I have made very delicious dishes and yet know nothing about cooking. Often most people don’t like it because of the nontraditional elements that tend to be my foundation &/or I’m not just not very present during it – much of the time I would rather be doing something else.
As much as I have unraveled in this area, my body and soul still suffer.
I want to remember another way.
To understand my flesh.

You, my beLoved:
Are born in this life of Russian speaking parents and lineage and have soft white-olive skin.
Your parents and family are there, yet you are well traveled.
We speak English naturally and fluently together, while I learn other languages -including a rather lost ancient Russian language that you communicate regularly in with your family.

Though I do not know it yet, your name rolls off my lips quietly and strongly.

You are very connected to truth & history and fairy tales.
You understand a great deal and are witty, quick of mind and feet.

You are tender and kind in meeting me where I am because you see and believe in me and you feel my strength and rare ability to support you and your dream.

Your dream is clear and you are on that path. You are ready for me to take you to the next phase of being human, of being Man. We both know that I will.

Yet you are not in a rush.

You are a storyteller, a poet, a performer.
You are humble & mysterious, yet open and giving.
You have a theater mind-set, silly and playful, child-like and also a grounded strong male presence.

You are older than I, and have lived on this Earth for a long long time (333 years), so there is very little you are  unaware of. Yet, you are youthful and look as if you’re as old as I.

Your eyes match mine, only they are a little greener.
You are 6 feet 7 inches tall and have a solid strong build & cut jaw line.
You have dark long healthy hair, with only a slight short groomed beard.
~I don’t know how you keep it trimmed, but you do in a forgotten way.
Your voice is deep and soothing.

You really are perfect and it is I whom you look forward to seeing grow and helping me. You know that I will and am capable of stepping into my best to find you. Together we perfect our dwelling land.

You never get angry & have all the time in the world, yet you look forward to being here in this timeline with me – to bond in our co-creation and joy from it’s contemplation.

You were in Sarasota FL, USA in the January of 2012. We saw each other at a grocery store but we didn’t end up meeting because I became distracted and you have been waiting for me ever since. It has been a beautiful and also painful path back to you.

It is not clear to me how we have known each other in previous lifetimes. I think there are particles of our souls that were alive in our pasts as beloveds and I also think its possible this is our first somehow. But, you know our time is drawing near to meet again. You are excited for me to meet you, and to be part of your world, to teach me about how to be the most perfect beautiful woman for you, your eternal wife.

And you watch me transform in such a short period of time.

There is a life I grew out of to find you but eventually we return together there to reunite with a beloved pet of mine. I must make some of this trip by myself but only because I’m ashamed of it. Perhaps you have interest in helping me through it. Your loving assurance that all is well and that you don’t need to see my old pot – the one I grew out of to find you is calming for me. You already know that it is a beautiful place and have helped me clear it, our eyes are forward to our new life with gratitude to the old one and only crossing paths with it for this reunion with my dog Zushi. She has been taken care of well. Thank you old life.

When we see each other again we know right away.
With one glance.
We are timeless.

You help me find & reach my potential right here on this Earth.
All of the things I am not good at or don’t know much about, will so easily come to me.
May I build your dream with you.
I am ready.